Wednesday, April 8, 2009

I love Pandora, because of the new music I never would've heard otherwise.

This song spoke perfectly of the emotions I felt after leaving small group last night. We studied Luke 23, Jesus' crucifixion. This being Holy Week, it really touched me in a way that I haven't felt touched in a long time. I came home and reread the passage aloud with Jerry, and we prayed together for God to help us understand more fully the sacrifice that Jesus gave for us. We often live our lives in a way that do not point to the cross, that degrade the meaning and weight behind it. It's humbling and convicting, and when I heard this song this morning... it just seemed as if this could've been me talking in my head.

Addison Road - What Do I Know of Holy

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

Even though I've been in the church and accepted Christ into my life years ago, there are still times when I think I know a lot about God, and I do... but I don't know Him. I don't talk to Him nearly as much as I do with my friends, not even close. I was telling Jerry yesterday how Jesus has all the time in the world for us, to listen to our every heart's desire, no matter how small... and we can't even give Him a minute of our time, even though He deserves so much more. We go to small group and large group and prayer meetings - for what? To actually know more about God, or to know Him more?

I remember what Sara said during a Core meeting. "Did Jesus have to die on the cross for your lessons to work?" I think she was talking about teaching Sunday school, so that's the context, but it makes so much sense in other contexts as well. As Christians, do we live our lives in a way that reflects the selfless sacrifice Jesus gave? Or would our lives just carry on the same, like the rest of the world?

Something to think about.

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